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Saturday, March 15, 2008
seeking gerry
5:56 PM I caught P.S. I Love You a second time with Cheng and Jiayuan last night. I'm not the kind of person who watches movies over and over again, even the ones I really love, cause I know I'd be bored with a plot I already know and be preoccupied with remembering what happens next. But I wanted to watch this show again because of how well it was portrayed, and developed, just because of the awesome story line, and simply to remind myself of the kind of pure inseparable kind of love Holly and Gerry shared, and how they are so clearly made for each other and try to keep myself away from reaching the point where I start disbelieving that I might find my ONE. After the movie, Jiayuan said it's an unrealistic show, because its just so difficult finding a Holly or Gerry in reality. He's an ass for reminding me of that. That was mr. jadedness and cynicism speaking to me, and even though I usually try not to hang around with bad company, at that point I nodded inside me and wondered if I was beginning to become a cynical old woman myself. I've wondered why its been so difficult for me to find someone I can feel entirely at ease with, whom I feel understands what I'm going through, who can really speak to me and make me see things I couldn't see before, who argues with me but can't bear to be angry for long, whom I want to tell first whenever something happens to me. I don't just want someone to accompany me to the movies, or go to lunch with simply so I won't be alone. And even when you may find such a person, mischief may turn up to ruin everything with an excuse like bad timing. I really related to the quote from the Leap Years, 'it takes courage to choose to be single, and not be with someone just so you won't be alone.' I'm fine being alone if I can't be with the right person, because in fact, I think for me it takes more guts to get together with someone I don't really love but for the company. The guts to enter into something with the possibility of finally find out I've made a mistake. I still don't have the guts to fall, and so I'm not ready to jump. this affliction I cannot medicate myself for, I wish I could, just like how Daniel takes medication for rudeness... if there was a cure then shux and xp wouldn't have to put up with so much of my whining... but I'm thankful beyond words that they've been around. They're the reason why I haven't gone crazy yet, because they rein in my insane useless thoughts. I sometimes wish I could marry them.... haha I wouldn't mind proposing. But watching Holly and Gerry reminds me of the kind of married life I dream of. Ughh I should stop watching these movies!!! Someone said to me recently, that a lot of people end up marrying the people they don't love the most. I'm praying I don't end up being one of them. *tells self to be patient. I'll wait till I'm old and wrinkled for my one. 0 comments |
ely belly Welcome to the drunk mootoo tiger's blog. This is the blog of a nonsensical 22 year-old. All posts are true accounts of misadventures in my life. misadventurer
I'm a shopaholic, a chocoholic, an alcoholic, a clubbaholic, an eataholic, a music junkie, a traveler.
I love crying in the movies, love cookies and popcorn, love lazing at home and love making people laugh.
I'm addicted to Johnson's Baby lotion, to my mom's cooking and to sinful desserts.
I cannot multi-task, I cannot drive, and I'm afraid of heights but I enjoy rollercoasters.
I like to be around people with whom I don't have to care if they think I'm crazy drinking bak kut teh from a straw.
I've never taken the reverse bungee, never been to the US, and never dyed my hair pink.
And I want to go on an misadventure once in my life.
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