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Saturday, August 07, 2004
8:58 PM today started off dreadfully. breakfast was a dose of the internet and caramel centred chocolates. and as how it began, it continued. i was constantly bingeing, on biscuits, leftover whipped potato, kfc popcorn chicken. all this even after a hearty lunch of fried hokkien noodles. and that was not all. magnum almond icecream and durian kueh were also in the list of junk i consumed. i may appear bimbotic. whineing about the food i ate when others have to worry about where their next meal is coming from. but different problems come with every single situation you are in and its no different when you always have food on your table. we worry about overeating and putting ourselves at risk of high blood pressure, high cholesterol levels and the likes. to make matters worse, i had my dinner when i least needed it. it was a pure mechanisation of my body, to feed myself constantly, as though i was unaware and had no control over what i was doing to myself. it felt like torture. i was on the verge of vomitting. yet i continued stuffing myself, telling myself there is only that much left. i was miserable afterwards. i contemplated inducing myself to vomit. i felt like a human dump, a glutton and it didn't feel the least bit good.i couldn't concentrate on my work, i was annoyed and irritable. it isn't like this hasn't happened before and that i don't know what i always feel like afterwards. i know what the consequences are yet things always go out of hand. sometimes i feel like life seems so boring, i try to inject some sense of satisfaction and pleasure through indulging in foods like chocolates and icecreams. but more often than not, like all acts of pleasure, it is so easy for it to turn into an addiction. but in this case, one that turns ugly. to redeem myself, i went jogging, for about an hour. in comparison, i felt so blissful running. healthy, energetic, youthful and not lethargic. it was evening and the sun was setting. darkness began to fall slowly as i ran through the complex roads that made up the lanes of huddington, burghley and crowhurst among many, past prettily decorated houses with dogs barking at the gates. i was thinking about the day, how little work i had done when i had set out to do so much. how this has happened time and time again and still things have not improved because i have not learnt to deal with it. running gave me the chance to think and relax. think about what i really want out of this stage of my life. what i want after this year passes. and though i didn't manage to settle the many questions that i have in my mind, because my thoughts kept wandering, it did allow me to start thinking, and to recognise this different type of pleasure that i obtain from my mobility. well on a lighter note, an idea hit me. as i mentioned, the estates around serangoon gardens are filled with dogs. and being me, i've decided to do dog-walking after this crucial period of my education tides over. it'd be a lovely chance for me. honestly i can't wait to get started. was considering starting now and doing the dog-walking on weekends. afterall i will be running on weekends so it wouldn't in fact be a waste of my time. perhaps i'll start with my aunt's dog. sweeeett! yipee...i'll do it tmr. i'm so excited. wheee! its back to work for now though! haha alrites dears, take care and ciaos! 0 comments |
ely belly Welcome to the drunk mootoo tiger's blog. This is the blog of a nonsensical 22 year-old. All posts are true accounts of misadventures in my life. misadventurer
I'm a shopaholic, a chocoholic, an alcoholic, a clubbaholic, an eataholic, a music junkie, a traveler.
I love crying in the movies, love cookies and popcorn, love lazing at home and love making people laugh.
I'm addicted to Johnson's Baby lotion, to my mom's cooking and to sinful desserts.
I cannot multi-task, I cannot drive, and I'm afraid of heights but I enjoy rollercoasters.
I like to be around people with whom I don't have to care if they think I'm crazy drinking bak kut teh from a straw.
I've never taken the reverse bungee, never been to the US, and never dyed my hair pink.
And I want to go on an misadventure once in my life.
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