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Friday, May 23, 2008
coping, moving on, and the difficulty of it
3:23 AM mom's been having bouts of vertigo often these days. its a condition which causes dizzy spells and headaches when she turns her head too quickly and suddenly, and more than once, she ended up fainting when it gets too bad. just today she was much less than her energetic self and had to lie on the couch the whole day, toweling herself down to avoid the dizzyness and nausea from striking her again. and like all the other times when it's happened (the last time was less than 2 weeks ago), she wasn't having much of an appetite, and she could only stomach plain water-boiled porridge, pickled cai xin, preserved beancurd and some pork floss. she's seen a doctor many times, and each time the doctors can only give her medication to help alleviate the discomfort after vertigo strikes, but never anything to prevent it from happening again. apparently there isn't any medication that can help with that. from what the docs say, it doesn't seem like a condition that could turn out to be something more serious, and they only suggested she get her ears checked, because it could have something to do with that. but even so, I can see what an inconvenience it is causing on her life. she's had to miss work 2 days yesterday and today, and when it strikes her, she always looks so tired and unbearably uncomfortable. and I feel a little cheesy saying this, but its heart-wrenching to see her like that. I miss my mom who comes into my room, lies on my bed and tries to poke her nose into what I'm doing on my laptop, or who acts quite like a child and plays around with me as we trying to disturb each other with pokes, tickles and smacks. hopefully when she goes for her checkup at the hospital they'll be able to find out the cause... and stop her from having to endure it again. I have this funny habit of thinking morbid stuff to remind myself how much more I should appreciate having my family around me. morbid stuff like, what if he/she wasn't around anymore? And it works everytime. I cry just thinking how devastated I would be. Silly right, but when I look at how life is unpredictable, and how as frequently as new life is breathed into this world, lives are taken away as carelessly, I guess it really is important to treat the people you love as you would if you knew they would be gone the next day. gone the next day.... such a bloody scary thought. Just like how the school children in China's earthquake struck areas didn't expect a tragedy to strike so out of the blue, nor expect that they might lose a classmate, teacher, a family member, or a limb. And reading the papers this morning about how now, almost 10 days after the quake, they try to restore some semblance of order to their lives, and resume classes again, it is heart-wrenching to hear their tales again. And how some of them, typical playful school kids before the disaster, have become so much more subdued, serious, and intent on doing their best in school, in order to be successful, and then come back to rebuild their home town. I'm sure the hard lesson of the fragility of life wasn't something they'd expected to learn at school that day. 0 comments |
ely belly Welcome to the drunk mootoo tiger's blog. This is the blog of a nonsensical 22 year-old. All posts are true accounts of misadventures in my life. misadventurer
I'm a shopaholic, a chocoholic, an alcoholic, a clubbaholic, an eataholic, a music junkie, a traveler.
I love crying in the movies, love cookies and popcorn, love lazing at home and love making people laugh.
I'm addicted to Johnson's Baby lotion, to my mom's cooking and to sinful desserts.
I cannot multi-task, I cannot drive, and I'm afraid of heights but I enjoy rollercoasters.
I like to be around people with whom I don't have to care if they think I'm crazy drinking bak kut teh from a straw.
I've never taken the reverse bungee, never been to the US, and never dyed my hair pink.
And I want to go on an misadventure once in my life.
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