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Sunday, February 26, 2006
something's missing.
5:49 PM helpppppp. I feel so empty now. now that To Pa With Love is over. now that I'm no longer Meiyu and will never be her again. now that Meiyu is but a part of the history of QP. now that I won't ever get to wear my silly cheongsam again, or have to climb out through my miniature house door, or catch butterflies again. I feel so sad. I want to cry. I miss everyone. WenShu and his fly swatting, Ji Jiao and the way he calls for Jia Foo or declares that he's got money, the way Joanne competes with Xiu Feng for having a nicer jade bangle, Wang Bao with his ticklish moustache and curly eyebrows, CaiHong with her signature 'Huh?'. Or argue with Da Jie over who cooks dinner, or comfort Xiao Mei, or see Pa sing to the photo of Ma. I got so comfortable calling Pa. And I won't hear Qing Sheng blurting about how nice the weather is, or watch Wing Fatt bring nourishments to my house. And no more Jia Foo taking food out from his pocket for Xiao Mei. No more Mao Xing Lou. No more mantous. No more 'FLOWERRRR'. no more recordings. no more cast trainings. no more standing on the stage at VT, or having Shan Bin or QianLing fuss over my hair, my clothes, my mic pack. No more pretty make-up artist to make me up. It may have been only 3 days, but I felt so odd seeing french fries and icecream and chicken wings on the table last night at supper. I almost felt guilty eating them. I think I should stick to vegetarian food. I'm SO lost. my heart's in a blur! But I am SO glad that I got to be part of cast. Its been a long journey but at the end of it, the exhilaration of pulling off a good show is so satisfying. Its addictive. Even if the applause isn't thunderous, or if the audience isn't that responsive, it just feel terrific knowing it yourself. I'm just so thankful for everything. But life's a harsh reality. And I've got assignments waiting for me, and I'm in absolutely no mood to do anything! All I want is to float in my dreamy To Pa With Love state. 'Perhaps I should move on, be strong and start anew..' 'But how can i ever forget you.....' I miss everything! 2 comments |
ely belly Welcome to the drunk mootoo tiger's blog. This is the blog of a nonsensical 22 year-old. All posts are true accounts of misadventures in my life. misadventurer
I'm a shopaholic, a chocoholic, an alcoholic, a clubbaholic, an eataholic, a music junkie, a traveler.
I love crying in the movies, love cookies and popcorn, love lazing at home and love making people laugh.
I'm addicted to Johnson's Baby lotion, to my mom's cooking and to sinful desserts.
I cannot multi-task, I cannot drive, and I'm afraid of heights but I enjoy rollercoasters.
I like to be around people with whom I don't have to care if they think I'm crazy drinking bak kut teh from a straw.
I've never taken the reverse bungee, never been to the US, and never dyed my hair pink.
And I want to go on an misadventure once in my life.
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